Hello My name is Tamra and I live in Tacoma, WA with the most unique and beautiful 9 year old daughter any parent could ever ask for! I have had an extremely rough last year that only made the previous 2 look like I a walk in the park as many I think many have. Asking for anything feels a bit out of place but for the first time in my daughters life and mine as her parent I find myself in a position that all I pray for is one last special moment to wake up Christmas morning to my baby girl screaming "He came mommy! He came! wake up and come see!".
Come the 31st of this years in roughly 22 more days we will have all of our things moved into a storage unit and be leaving the only home she has ever known that I built for us from nothing so many years ago. I did my best I really really did! I work so hard to make every holiday here more special than the last and I did a pretty good job I think! Every Christmas here was amazing! This year we wont have a tree though but I am going to try to decorate the fireplace and let her hang her stalking with care. In hope it will let her believe in Santa for one more Christmas before that innocence of wonder and magic is gone. I am pretty sure she knows Santa and mommy are one in the same or at least in Cahoots but I whenever she asks I do my best to give an answer that allows her to still believe Santa is real and so is his magic and after she asked me one last time last week she wrote a letter for him asking if I could make sure he got it before it was too late.
I find myself having to struggle with the uncertainty of where we will lay our heads in less than a month. I am even going to do something that will be so hard for me to do but as a parent its the last option i have to make sure my child will not suffer and go without a safe place to sleep and stay warm even though I have never been away from her a day in the last 9years i have been blessed to be her mother. She has family in Louisiana on her fathers side that she has only met one time. The send her birthday gifts and have always said maybe one summer she can come and visit and get to know us and us know her. I find myself unable to keep a promise I made to Emma on her on her 4th birthday when we first moved into this home I built for us after having to live in my car car for weeks back in may of 2017 and she layer in her bed in her very own room for the first time. I promised I would never let her sleep in a car or never have a rough and a bed of her own to sleep in again. And here I am 5 years later having to break the promise because I haven't the means to keeps us here anymore after everything that's happened these last 3 yeas. When my car was totaled by a drunk drive back in may then the car I was offered to help me at least get by and help keep me mobile and able to find a job or something was stolen in October I have been stuck unable to earn money to pay rent and keeps us here.
So My wish for this Christmas is to have one last great one with her here together. Because I have no other options left. If her family in Louisiana is willing and able to take her in for a little while I have to ask them no matter how hard it will be. But I can pitch up the tent i bought to go camping in last summer and do what I have to until I can get on my feet again. But I cant do that to her. So If they are willing and able to help take her in come the new year I have to sacrifice the fear of being without her for a little while in order to keep her safe and warm no matter how much it will hurt to not see her face every single day! She deserves to know them though and I can find a comfort in knowing that she can spend some time learning about that part of herself and that side of her family. That's a blessing in and of itself as well. I just want this final holiday with her here in the home i built for us to be as special as all the ones before it and make sure she know how much I love her no matter how near or far apart we may be. That Is a single mommies wish this year.
So her on her list she asked for a rainbow high or OMG LOL doll. maybe some slime or if possible a REAL Mermaid tale so she can swim like a real mermaid! As a parent she has more than enough lol and rainbow high dolls and one girl could want! But she is obsessed all the same and just loves them! However I know that for the last 4 years she has asked Santa to bring her a real mermaid tale that she can wear when she goes swimming so she can be a real mermaid! I know that is the one wish of them all that means the most to her. I as her mommy would love to get her a watch as she just learn to tell time and it would really help with getting her to the bus on time each morning for school. Really anything would make her happy even candy and some makeup in a stalking. She's not a picky child and always gets so excited over any and everything she receives! Even if its just making mommy happy when mommy feels blue! She's
the most amazing kid like that! So anything you are able to give her would be wonderful and I would be so grateful for the gift as well! You wouldnt just be granting one wish this year but 2 for a Single Mommy and her Special Rainbow Mermaid girl Emma this Christmas 2022! Happy Holidays to you and your family! May it bring everything you deserve and more!