Really just trying to keep my Christmas spirits high

Im a daughter, who takes care for her elderly mother, and just recently back in March was a terrible month in my life, see March 3rd in 96 my sister passed away at 16 from cancer/septic shock, 27 years ago, on March 7th my 1st fur baby had to be put to sleep cuz of health complications, and then on March 26th my brother who lived in a group home for mentally disabled passed away, from pneumonia septic shock and i would always take him out shopping and for appointments, while my two other sisters live close by do not help out, they say they cant cuz their just so busy. When really they just didn't want to, well shortly after i lost my job cuz alot of hr companies have the best communication skills and so i ended up loosing my job to then get back again but so behind on bills and we did get a new little dog and name is Emme, my mom 65 disabled with alot of health issues, she likes fuzzy socks, tunic sweatshirts xxl, winter boots size 9 or mugs for her coffee and myself 35 year old woman just would like house hold supplies and light up snowman glob and i wear 8 in boots and my rescue dog Emme is 2 she likes everything, but would like her to have a noce dog bed besides my bed and so even if its a small thing like a dog snack or pair of fuzzy socks great cuz all the money i need to pay rent and utilities before i get kicked out